Finally, She Spoke to Me and I Heard

“Don't let the noise of others' opinion drown out your inner voice.” -- Steve Jobs

Over the years, I have lost most of the confidence I had when I began my journey. Although, I cannot put all the blame in my failed relationship and I will choose not to burden him with all the blame. It was a whole web of people’s opinion. Slowly, I got so fed up hearing the noise that I succumbed to it somehow. I won’t say, I intentionally did; but, it was exhausting me somehow. The dreams and visions I was once so certain of, slowly became bleak and vague. Doubt sank in and ate me. Until, somehow, I seem to have forgotten.

With my spirit drenched in doubt and my spirit in some exhaustion I could not fathom; I got content being pushed by the crowd. My dreams ceased to matter because, as they said, I wasn’t making any progress and it was a wrong dream. I tried hopelessly to create a new dream; although, I knew my heart only knew the dream I was leaving and turning away from.

Slowly, I had myself convinced of what they said. Slowly, the dream vanished.

Fast forward to present; everyone became anxious of my dreary life. Everyone was pushing for a passion inside me. It is a very painful moment for me. They all wanted me to name what ignites my soul, and for that moment there; I had nothing. Their demands were pressing. The noise was too loud it deafens me.

I willfully decided to hush the noise around me. Limit the voices and gather my cheerleaders. The inner voice began to speak. It was a moment of looking into myself and speaking only to her. She was grateful to be heard. She told me what stopped her from speaking. She made me see the opinions others had that slowly drowned her. She helped me identify the fallacies my mind told itself.

 

There is no wrong dream which enlivens the heart. If the dream consumes you; then, by all means oblige. Let that dream guide you and let be your True North; that one passion you will live by and tell your tales from.

Finally, she spoke to me and I heard her.

Finally, we’re friends once again.