Notes from the Younger Me

The paper has yellowed over the years. I couldn't believe this piece has been saved. I remember this to be about three pages long; but only this part was kept. This would be the last page of it. The last paragraph as well.

The words go...

"Looking back it has been long. I never knew I grew until the day I looked in the mirror and saw my reflection. So many has changed and all has been realized because I loved and lost."

(and maybe this long time I was referring to was a meager two years or so...now it's been two decades past. What an irony! And the love lost was young love!!!)

It went further to say...

"So often we deny ourselves of many things. We forget that there is a big world waiting for us. We get contented with the little space we occupy, but we are matter capable of excitement. We can expand, and so, we must...

 (where ever did I get these at such young age?!?)

"...I, at this moment am not saying I have conquered fear. I am saying though that I have taken a step towards it. The lessons are in us, somebody just need to tap it out of our shells. God sends us angels, don't abjure your angel the chance to open you. Don't let fear hold you, nor anger...."

(I am a bit overwhelmed by this young girl...I am beginning to think she is someone else :P)

"Anger blocks our comprehension. When you have blown the clouds off and are able to see clearer, you'll know who cares...."

"It's a good thing I became part of my world and not a mere design. I had a greater purpose here and so I have to be involved..."

(I somehow knew earlier then...)

"We are greater than angels they say but each of us is some kind of an angel waiting to open his wings. Recognize yourself...and others."

....

Reading back through my words made me wonder if I was really wiser as a youth than I am now. I now see why people pressure me to bring back my "old self". She was indeed a brilliant promising youth.  But then again it is not the point at hand. What matters is that I have been reminded through the very notes from the younger me. Now, I am my own angel too :)